I started to post a top 10 list of why I am refusing Gardasil but having read the recent posts I have changed my mind. After all I can't keep my list to ten items anyway. I was once like those of you who are blasting the "anti-vaccine" group although I was never so bold as to post it anywhere because I did know a few people who were brave enough to tell me of their reactions. I actually knew several people throughout my life who reacted with the classic reactions that doctors actually admit happening. The kind of reactions that would warrant a medical exemption. Nonetheless I didn't want to follow through and neither did my mother really. We wanted everything to be alright. We wanted the quick fix and instant protection. We chose to vaccinate on doctor's recommendations and the research that was given to us. I have lived to regret that decision.

Members of my family have all reacted to vaccines, even with immediate and classic reactions of high fever, high pitched and inconsolable cries, encephalopathy. I vaccinated my children in the face of these reactions. I questioned the shots and did what I thought was thorough research, but I was never given the truth. When all was said and done and my children were fully vaccinated, the doctors finally admitted they believed that shots caused their problems. Now it was my problem though and not theirs. Over and over I would hear that vaccines are "just too important". So where do the children fall in this list of priorities?

Review of medical records proves we reacted beyond the shadow of a doubt. I had question ed safety but wanted our doctor and family friend to be right, and we certainly all trusted him. I ignored the facts. Reactions do happen and they are not rare. I did not know that a patient cannot sue a physician or anyone administering or manufacturing a vaccine for any reason. I did not know about the NVICP and how it worked or didn't work. I did not know what shoddy research was used and the ugliness of the politics involved in making vaccination policy. I did not know how much money was spent to persuade physicians while at the same time keep them in the dark.

I have a bachelors in Biomedical Science and Masters in Health and my husband is a physician. If anyone should know about these issues it should have been us. We went into medicine and allied health to help others, not hurt them with faulty research and bias.

I used to believe the so-called "anti-vaccine" groups were radical, but then again that is just what I was taught. My pre-med professors actually called them "religious fanatics" and "nuts who cared more about saving a few dollars than their own kids". Pre-med students would sit around nodding their heads in agreement. I would get worked and frustrated with the rest of them when I heard doctors say they were "preventing others from having much needed and life-saving vaccines". I was just as scared as the next person. Now I see these comments for what they really are because I have not only done my research, but I have also become involved.

The bottom line- no vaccine should be forced on any individual. This is all about the bottom dollar and not health. The "common good" argument does not even hold up when one looks at the dramatic increase in the rates of debilitating and deadly diseases following shots. All shots contain carcinogens, mutagens, and teratogens and the long term effects of mass vaccination have never been studied. The largest safety study has been performed for over 100 years and the only ones taking notes and collecting data are the concerned citizens. Those citizens are being harassed publicly, and I can no longer stand by and watch.

As far as Gardasil is concerned, 225 mcg of aluminum was used in the placebo! They had the nerve to put one of the most questionable compounds in the placebo trial. Much of the damage parents witness in their children may very well be caused by this substance. We have known for more than 100 years that aluminum is a potent neurotoxin. Aluminum's long term and synergistic effects have never been studied. Recent research shows definitively that it causes neuronal cell death. I have experienced this personally and I can tell you it is no fun. I will take my chances with the diseases, and I now realize how important it is to have that right.

No one should be given the right to kill and maim innocent citizens for profit.